disputatious lunacy

Science deals with observable phenomena. We have words for shit we might not yet understand. An "apparition" may be a trick of light, an imprint playing itself back... or perhaps a ghost, phantom, spirit, whatever you call it... conscious energy that remains after neurological decomposition... dead people, et cetera.

Is it absurd to entertain such notions or to actively believe in the paranormal? "Yes, it is." you say? Hogwash! You probably believe ridiculous ideas like our Earth being a perfect sphere or that omnivores (such as humans) require animal products in their diets, but you can't imagine that matter and energy can only be converted, never destroyed? If that sounds preposterous, look at a compost heap, then at the plants growing from damp soil!

That's what I call proof of life after death, reincarnation, transmigration of the soul. You are the decisions you make and the food you eat, the only person you can defeat. Are you a graveyard or a garden?

$100 of vegan food

Mom and I went to Lion Market today and stopped at Safeway briefly for a few more items. Did you notice I've been snacking on matzos?

$25 of groceries

goats

I had a dream that I decided I wanted to keep goats in the patio, which isn't really so good an idea because it's a small garden. Anyway, little goats started to sneak in from a neighbor's backyard to live in mine! It was a pleasant little dream...

hope

I find hope in this potato plant growing from concrete.

The soil is fertile.

Thorn and Birch

I went a couple of days without eating or sleeping because I had been unable to acquire the flowers of female Cannabis sativa. Since last night, I'm smoking the best "Romulan" I've had in years!

Most of my dreams have been forgotten but I remember this one. I was walking in the forest with my friends Brad and Scott, when we came to an almost horizontal tree. It was at just the right angle to form a trail into the Sky, and traveling this way was apparently the plan. It was terribly difficult to balance, even with a hiking staff, so I got down and refused to go up. We argued.

nightmares and divination

I slept all day, which isn't out of the ordinary. The nightmares I had were horrifying... I awoke (or so I thought) to the sound of my mother talking with her mother. I walked passed the stairs and saw her, wearing a green flowery nightgown, most of the way up the staircase, but didn't see her face. I went into the washroom, felt the need to wash my hands far too many times, then went upstairs. The hallway light no longer on and I found Mom in my sister's old room at the computer. "Where did Grandma go?" I asked.

Mom paused looking at me and then said, "She died."

"I just saw you talking with her ten minutes ago!" The light came on near the beds and I saw someone laying face down under the sheets. I turned her over, barely still warm, her face distorted. "Why didn't you wake me when she came over to visit?"

I went downstairs and my sister was at her laptop and watching television, but there was a strange symbol on the screen like a stylized damaged trident facing downward, with a moving green background. It was noisy yet I couldn't make out the sounds. I told her what happened and Lyn pressed the power button on the TV, stopping for a moment in confusion because it didn't shut off, then ran upstairs. I tried to shut it off, then reached behind to unplug it and woke screaming.

I later dreamt I was carrying a box with a cat in it, the body of Cutie, whom my sister's awful dogs killed this Halloween. There were tiny insects and worms all over her. I was looking for my mom, and awoke calling to her. I said "I couldn't find you!" and went back to sleep, telling her later of the nightmare.

I offered part of an apple revealing a pentagram inside for the spirits and Ing, as well as coffee, cannabis smoke... I had received Ingwaz in my runecasting tonight. Mom got Gebo. Both runes were face down, but not bad staves to get under any circumstance. See the Runecaster's Handbook by Edred Thorsson for interpretations!